Stillwater Pond

She said "sweetie, whatcha thinkin'?"
I stared down at the ground
I don't think life is easy, and it's hitting me right now
We walked right down the sidewalk and I opened up my mouth
"My life is in a strange place,
Like sitting at a pond,
And noticing the stillness, and taking in the calm"

(Mmmhmm) I don't know what I'm doing, can't you tell?
(Mmmhmm) Not used to all the silence in my head
(Mmmhmm) And I'll be honest, I make my life hell
(Mmmhmm) So how am I supposed to do the rest?

Don't keep making your storms, girl, it's all you can do, to keep pushing through
Appreciate all the quiet, 'cus now your life is just up to you
You had it all along
Never had to write this song
So as long as we're sitting, here's the truth
You don't need to know what to do

I used to resort to drinking
It could numb the pain I felt
Every weekend I'd repeat it, and the weekdays just as well
I chose to just deny it, grin and bare, I'd tell myself
Now I'm not still in college
Or in a shitty job
So I told myself at my age I should practice self love

(Mmmhmm) Maybe I'm in more control than I let on
(Mmmhmm) When I stop the issues new ones just appear
(Mmmhmm) Wait, I'm starting to think they're already gone
(Mmmhmm) I should take my own advice, get out of here

Don't keep making your storms, girl, it's all you can do, to keep pushing through
Appreciate all the quiet, 'cus now your life is just up to you
You had it all along
Never had to write this song
So as long as we're sitting, here's the truth
You don't need to know what to do

I'm sitting at the airport
I'm on standby for the flight
I don't feel so agitated
About figuring out life
There's no way to have answers
And I don't need to plan
I'll just fucking make it
Just a step at a time
Take a breath, it'll be fine
You don't need to be right
Just keep doing what you can